Day 10 (November 5)

It's Friday. Day 10. Last night after drinking a few beers, it was a little hard and the cravings were definitely there. Thankfully, working out (after drinking too, strange but I'm glad I did it) and eating most of a bag of sour cream and onion chips kept me from buying a pack. But odd things happened when I stopped at the store and gas station.

When I was at CVS buying the chips, I was standing in line, getting annoyed because I was standing in line and I ended up gazing longingly at cigarette display behind the counter for a few minutes. It's weird because many years ago when I was visiting the Great White North (Toronto, for Spring Break), I was all "offended" and "outraged" that their goofy government was able to change cigarette packs to have disgusting pictures of lungs, etc., and skulls and crossbones and big warning labels. Now, I almost wish packs looked like that in the US. The design of packs are enticing, something I've been used to seeing the majority of my life. I want them to be different now. Maybe I'll write my congressman. I've been meaning to write him anyway to complain about the fact that neither E!, VH1 nor Comedy Central have HD channels yet. It's an outrage.

Next, I stopped at the Sunoco across from the CVS because their drinks are cheaper. The dude behind the counter grabbed my typical smoke order (which, of itself, is kind of sad) that he memorized years ago and I had to tell him I quit. I swear to the baby Jesus he looked completely hurt by the news.That's ok though. I don't want to be known by random people by what I smoke anymore!!


A final little thing I also learned this week. I mentioned to a friend at work (one of my boss's advisees) what I'm doing when I get cravings (rubbing my patch, breathing deeply so I get lightheaded). He said that I'm changing my brain chemistry because I'm putting more oxygen into my blood. Of course, when I heard "changing brain chemistry" I interpreted it as "slowly building superpowers" so I completely expect to be able to see through walls and and control the minds of people around me within the month. Fair warning.


I rawr all of my awesome friends and family.